I'M OKAY. OF COURSE I AM NOT OKAY BECAUSE TUPANGINA HARD YOU LEFT ME HANGING SUDDENLY AND I HAVE TO ACT LIKE I DON'T CARE AT ALL EVEN IF IT HURTS TOO MUCH DEEP INSIDE PUNYETA PUNYETA PUNYETA SON OF A FISH TUPANGINA AND NAO I FEEL ENVIOUS WITH MY FRIENDS AND I FEEL INCREDIBLY DISAPPOINTED AND I FEEL DEPRESSED AND I FEEL LIKE I'M IN MY WORST STATE AND I FEEL LIKE NOBODY REALLY CARES AND NAO I'M FEELING SHIT AND YOU DON'T REALLY GIVE A SINGLE TIME TO NOTICE AND I FEEL FUCKED UP AFTER MAKING SOMEONE HAPPY AND I REALIZED HOW DEPRESSING IT IS TO FEEL LIKE THERE'S NO ONE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY TOO AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING AND IT FEELS LIKE I'M GOING TO EXPLODE WITH THIS INNUMERABLE EMOTIONS INSIDE ME AND IT TEARS ME TO KNOW THAT BEHIND ALL THESE ACTIONS YOU LIKE SOMEONE ELSE AND PHILLIP PHILLIPS HAD HIS 21ST BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW AND I FELT LIKE I'M A WORTHLESS FAN BUT I REALLY LOVE HIM AND TODAY'S CHEN'S BIRTHDAY AND I DECIDED TO BE A NORMAL PERSON AND I DO NOT WANT TO BE AN EXO FAN ANYMORE AND I'M KIND OF SCARED WITH MY FRIENDS BECAUSE I KNOW THAT WILL MAKE THEM SAD BUT YEAH I'M SURE THEY'LL UNDERSTAND BUT I'M NOT STILL SURE IF HAVING THIS DECISION WILL MAKE THINGS RIGHT AND I'M REALLY SORRY CHENBABES SOMEDAY WE'LL MEET AND IT TAKES TIME OMG I SAID 'IT TAKES TIME' OKAY NAO I'M FEELING DEPRESSED AGAIN WTH WTH OKAY ALL I HAVE TO DO IS TO HAVE FAITH AND WAIT BUT HEY IT IS NEVER EASY TO BE OKAY WHEN EVERYTHING AROUND YOU GETS BAD AND OKAY FINALLY I UNDERSTOOD WHAT I AM FEELING WELL I FEEL OVERUSED NO I MEAN I OVERUSED MY PRETENDING SKILLS AND WAIT I GET USED WITH SMILING OVER THINGS WHEN I DON'T REALLY FEEL LIKE DOING IT IN A CERTAIN SITUATION AND THEN WHEN IT GETS HARDER AND HARDER AND IT GETS HEAVIER AND HEAVIER IN MY CHEST AND IT FEELS LIKE EXPLODING WITH TEARS WAIT I MEAN I'M NOT CRYING OKAY THAT'S MY PROBLEM I CAN'T CRY BECAUSE I PITY MYSELF AND IT'S BAD AND I FEEL LIKE CRYING ALONE WITH NO ONE ELSE BY MY SIDE AND IT'S PRETTY SAD TO IMAGINE AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE ALL I HAVE TO TELL YOU IS I AM SAD UP TO THIS SECOND.

It's quite hard to have this monthly period.