I LIKE YOU.

AND IT'S GETTING WORSE DAY BY DAY.

AND I CAN'T REALLY GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND.

AND EVERY TIME I REMEMBER THE SMILE THAT YOU GAVE ME YESTERDAY, I CAN'T HELP BUT TO SMILE EVEN MORE.

FIRST DAY PALANG NG SEMBREAK MISS MO NA AGAD.

Inspired.

• The Perks of Being A Wallflower
• Fafa chen (Okay let me call him fafa)
• Adam Levine
• Secondhand Serenade
• Paramore
• Mam Crisostomo
• Coleen
• Dreams

I'm seriously inspired these days. That movie trailer really excited me. It's like my dreams are coming true one by one. And I'm gonna do my best for this, like REALLY. I love these things okay? Totally.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower. A total inspiration.

Oh, and is it really weird to be inspired by your dreams? 

One thing I liked about this day is that, the gate of Prima has already Christmas lights. Idk. It really gave me good vibes. I mean, I could feel my blood vessels flow excitedly. It's just that, I want Christmas. I love Christmas. Everything about Christmas makes me go ahfjknlakdfhcbhskamldo :) I love Christmas lights and Christmas carols. All of the soothing music, all of the smiles and relaxing feeling. Time of the year, Christmas is.

I asked my mom how she could imagine her best place, the place where she wish to live. She said something about natural things. She definitely love nature. Even the sound of birds chirping makes her relaxed. It really keeps her stress away. And when she asked me about mine, I told her anything about Christmas. Well that's kind of weird because there's nothing deep about it. But one thing's for sure, I love Christmas. I could really imagine a night, where I walk in a gorgeous park, full of Christmas lights attached on every tree I see, holding hands with someone who means alot to me, feel the warmth of each other's hands despite of the cold weather around us, seeing fireworks later and enjoy. Idk. It seems perfect to me.

Sorry for posting random things. Random is random. 

One thing I like about him is.. he's great. I mean, everyone is surely great okay, but he's.. kind of.. different. I don't know. I can't explain it. He tries to know what my interests are, and he chats me up about harry potter, and even if I'm boring and dull and not worthy for his time, he puts hard work. Okay? He exerts effort for us to be close. He's humorous and his smile is just adorable that he could already lighten up someone's day by just showing his pearly whites. D'you get it?

He appreciates my skills.

And he knows how to make me laugh.

And he makes me happy.

Every time I see his face, I feel happiness.

Not that I am in love. But I like this guy.

He's my favorite.

99 truths.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage = Coke
2. Last phone call = Mom 
3. Last text message = Tita Connie
4. Last song you listened to = Goodnight goodnight - Maroon 5
5. Last time you cried = ICR

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice = Girl dates, yes.
7. Been cheated on = If cheating on a contest was counted, then yes.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = Nope.
9. Lost someone special = Yes.
10. Been depressed = Yes. But not that serious.
11. Been drunk and thrown up = No O:)

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. White
13. Red
14. Blue

THIS YEAR (2012) HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend = Yeah.
16. Fallen out of love = No.
17. Laughed until you cried = Many times :)
18. Met someone who changed you = Yes. 
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yes. The normal thing :)
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = No. (Kissing is not my thing)
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Maybe 40%
24. Do you have any pets = Yes
25. Do you want to change your name = Nope, satisfied :D
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Lakwatsa!
27. What time did you wake up today = 9am. Okay.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Watched suckerpunch
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = I can't think of any :p
30. Last time you saw your mother = Minutes ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Nothing.
32. What are you listening to right now =Whatever You Like - Anya Marina :)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Well, yeah.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Fake friends. Idk. 
35. Most visited webpage = Twitter
37. Nicknames = Chloe, Cholowe, Kulowee (Okay anything about spelling :p) Kean, Ken, *kunwarimaganda (an old url)
39. Zodiac sign = Cancer
40. He or She? = She
41. Elementary = Imus Pilot Elem. School :)
42. High School = Imus Institute
43. College = Undecided
44. Hair colour = Black
45. Long or short = In between
46. Height = 5'4
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Yes.
48: What do you like about yourself? = Idk. Personality? Uniqueness? 
50. Tattoos = NO.
51. Righty or lefty = Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = None.
53. First piercing = None.
54. First best friend = Kyla
55. First sport you joined = ICR. HAHA. I'm not really athletic. Lazy person, I am :p
56. First vacation = Bulacan =)
58. First pair of trainers = i cant remember. 

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Toasted Bread
60. Drinking = Lemon Juice
61. I'm about to = wash my hair after this. 
62. Listening to = Anya Marina's songs.
63. Waiting for = Christmas :) I just love everything about Christmas.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Yeah, at the right time.
65. Get Married? = Yes. 
66. Career? = Well, anything about films or any interest that I might enjoy.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = Lips.
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs!
69. shorter or taller = TALLER.
70. Older or Younger = Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both :)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Nice arms. Okay does it really matter? =))
73. Sensitive or loud = Both. 
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = None.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = HAHAHAHAHAHAHA no.
77. Drank hard liquor = No. Pagood girl. Chos.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = I don't really wear any.
79. Sex on first date = WTH NO.
80. Broken someone's heart = Idk, maybe.
81. Had your own heart broken = Yes, of course.
82. Been arrested = No
83. Turned someone down = HAHAHA yes.
84. Cried when someone died = No.
85. Fallen for a friend? = No.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Of course. 
87. Miracles = Yes.
89. Heaven = Yes.
90. Santa Claus = Kind of. =))
91. Kiss on the first date = Well, no.
92. Angels = Yes :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = No.
95. Did you sing today? = YES. 
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = Yes.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = Back to my childhood, I guess. Everything's great and no stress and no dramas.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? =  Around Dec. Christmas party. I mean, that day. 
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = No.

Eport nyo naman po hanapin blog ko hekheks

Ang totoo nyan eh, naiinis ako. Hindi ko alam kung may karapatan ba akong mainis o wala pero naiinis talaga ako. Eh kase alam mo yon. Halatang halata na. Dinedeny nya pa. Wala lang. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Nahihiya siguro sya. Kaso wala lang, pati ba naman saken idedeny nya.

Ang totoo nyan eh kaya ko tinanong kahapon si lksnahucjl ng deretsahan kung gusto nya si lfbjxchaj sa harap ni sahocjlnsfjin kais alam kong naasa si sahocjlnsfjin. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang malaman nya yung totoo. Para sa kanya din naman yon eh.

Ang mean ko ba?

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Nakakakilig yung Ramona and Beezus huhuhuhuhuhu putek kinikilig ulit ako huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

Ang galing huhuhuhuhu

"Magkaklase sila Olivia at George. Nagkatitigan sila nung nagpakilala sa unahan. First day of highschool. Inadd sya ni George. Inaccept nya. 3rd day of highschool. Umamin si George na may gusto sya kay Olivia. Tinawanan lang sya ni Olivia. Hindi sila nakatulog parehas. Inisip nila ang isa't isa. Hanggang sa chinat sya ng chinat ni George. Bentang benta. Chat all day. Chat everyday. Dahil don, naging close sila. Sa sobrang pagkaclose sa facebook, napansin ni Olivia na hindi sila nagpapansinan sa personal. Why not try to be close personally daw. If you say so, sabe ni George. Kinabukasan nagusap sila. Tapos nagkwentuhan. Hinding hindi makakalimutan ni Olivia yon. Tuwang tuwa sya. Hindi sya makarecover. Hindi naglaon, nagtanong na si George kung pwede mangligaw. Shocked si Olivia, kinikilig sya. Sabe ni Olivia, "Hindi pa ba yan yung ginagawa mo?". Tapos ayon na naman. Landian na naman. Tapos tinanong ni George si Olivia through facebook, "Tayo na ba?" (is there US??) tapos umoo si Olivia. Nagparty si George. Nag I love you sya kay Olivia. Nag I love you din si Olivia kay George. Nag i love you-han sila. Dahil daw don, naging secret lovers sila sa room. Ayaw daw nila ipaalam sa iba. Pero nadulas din si George. Nasabe nya sa mga kaibigan nya. Kumalat. Tuwing magkakatabi sila, naghihiyawan ang buong klase. Feel na feel nilang dalawa syempre.

Ang saya."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Eto yung kanina naming binabasa ni Pam. I mean, english version kasi yon ng kaklase ko. Kaso tinatamad akong alalahanin yung exact words kaya tinagalog ko na lang. Inedit ko pa yan! Hahahahahahahahahaha. Wala lang. Sorry ah. Baka kasi mabasa nila to eh. Wala lang. Tawang tawa ako. Kinikilig na natatawa. Alam mo ba yon?

Hindi ko maimagine na sinasabi ni George yung "Is there us?". Tapos ang pagkakasulat pa ng kaklase ko don sa line na yon, "is there US??" Hahahahaha wala lang. Emphasized yung US putek XD Minsan nakakaurat yung ganyan.

ANG SAYA.
Medyo naeexcite ako sa susunod na mga mangyayari.
True story yan okay.
Alam ko na mangyayari susunod pero gusto ko magmumula dun sa kaklase ko.

Ang benta =))

Ang babaw ko.

Dumaan yung crush ko kanina sa Grade 7. Tinuro ko sya sa best friend ko para makilala nya.  Kaso palagi na lang sinasabi ni Cj yung "Ano? Saan?" ng malakas. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA putek. Yung tipong nadaan yung crush mo sa harapan nyo tapos sasabihin ng best friend mo, "San dyan?" tapos malakas. Watda hahahahahahahahaha. Nahalata na nila Pam. Si Cj naman, sumigaw pa ng "kuya" para lang humarap yung lalaking yon. Putek hahahahahahahahahahaha spell caheeheeian. Tapos bumalik ulit. Saan pa din ng saan si Cj. Tapos bumalik ulit. Tapos bumalik ulit. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA sabe sa inyo nakakahalata na yon eh. Papansin pa, feeling bench body.

Hindi ako kinikilig. Natatawa ako tuwing nakikita ko yon. Hindi ko nga alam kung masasabi ko bang crush yung grade 7 na yon eh. Wala lang. Tsaka nagpapakaOA lang ako. Okay, secret lang natin tong mga to ah. Pero ang totoo talaga nyan, napopogian lang ako don sa grade 7 na yon (Yung nakateam ko sa seminar). Actually di talaga sya gwapo kasi mukha syang hanunuo tuwing naglalakad. Masyadong paastig, medyo mauurat ka na tawang tawa. Nakakatawa din sa kanya eh yung kapag dadaan sya, biglang magaayos ng buhok HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ang lantod ampatuan XD Yung pagaayos ng buhok na papansin talaga, I mean, feeling astig. Feeling cool. Ganon. 

Pink yung bag nya. BUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Hindi naman sa nakakatawa. Ang unique nga eh, tsaka nakakaattract. Natatawa lang ako kasi tuwing nakikita ko bag nya napagkakamalan ko syang si Nolin. Okay wtfff ang babaw ko.

Madami din palang benefits yung magkacrush ka sa mas bata sayo. Like a boss.

Just to make everything clear, I. AM. NOT. FALLING. FOR. ANYBODY. I may be attracted by someone who's physically great and handsome, but I am not in love. Ewan ko. Ang gulo ko kase magpost! Masyadong dramatic. Hahaha. Pero promise, hindi ako in love. Yuck. Petiks lang okay? Haha.


Nagloloko internet.


Mahilig ako maghalughog ng likes ng isang tao sa facebook. Ewan ko kung bakit.


You've been on my mind,
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time,
Just thinking of your face,
God only knows why it's taken me so long to let my doubts go,
You're the only one that I want

Nahirapan ako sa Mapeh kanina. Pati dn pala sa TLE, yung last page. Tupangina kung ano ano pinagsasagot ko. Puro song lyrics, yun lang kase yung nasa loob ng utak ko habang nagtetake ng exam. Sabi ko pa naman sa nanay ko, nadalian ako sa test. Lagot!

Naiinis ako dun sa crush ng kaibigan ko. Manloloko. Bwiset. May girlfriend pala, landi ng landi. 

kanina, habang naglalakad sa subdivision, naisip ko na yon! Tamang tama, 11am, papasok na si Earl. Naiisip ko na, na sana makasalubong ko sya. O kaya dadaan ako sa harap ng bahay nila. At the same time, may dumaang truck sa harap ko. Pagkaalis, nakita ko sya. Shet. Ang saya. Nagmumura nako sa isip ko. Binagalan ko pa lakad ko non kase malandi ako. Tapos narealize kong sobrang haggard ko non. Tupa. Kulang na lang magpalamon ako sa lupa.

Ang saya kapag may crush ka sa ibang year o kaya ibang section. Madaling magpabuo ng araw yung mga ganon eh.

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Wait.

Habang tinatype ko to bigla kong narealize na tinatamad na ako magkacrush.


Gulo ko ba?

Omeygad ano na naman pong balak nyo't viniview nyo tong baul ko

Seriously, gandang ganda ako dito sa kantang to. Ewan ko kung bakit. Para syang sad version ng Rocketeer (one of my foreverfavorite songs). Pero.. dyok, ewan, malayo ata. Basta.

Ang weird ko ngayong araw. Wala akong mapost na kapost-post. Nagpatuwa lang sakin eh yung hinika ako habang nagtetake ng exam. Chos. Di ko nga alam kung ano yung hika eh. Pero basta. Tuloy tuloy yung ubo ko, nonstop. Kulang na lang dukutin ko yung lalamunan ko, sobrang kati. Pinagtitinginan na nga ako eh. De dyok feeler amp haha.

Pagkauwi ko, nanood ako ng The Incredibles sa Star Movies. Nung natapos, lipat agad ako sa TLC. May favorite kasi ako dong show, ang galing galing nung chef eh. Feeling ko kailangan ko na ding maging chef pagdating ng araw. Okay. Detailed to.

Nakatulog ako.

Inakyat pa ko ng tatay ko para ibigay saken gamot ko. Ayos! Feeling donya ang lola mo. Feel free pa ako magaircon. Ewan ko sa tatay ko. Pinage-aircon ako kase pag daw natuyuan ako ng pawis, mamamatay daw ako. Luh?

Sorry ah. Kung ano ano pinagsasabi ko.

Wait sino ba kausap ko.

Nakakapangdisappoint po. Hindi po natuloy yung gala namin bukas. Excited pa naman ako manood ng sine. Chos. Medyo. Eh. Pero gusto ko talaga. Kaso wala kaming pera. De. I mean nagiipon kame. Hindi ko alam kung para saan. Hindi naman ako sasama sa concert. Haha. Gusto ko lang damayan sila.

Naiinis ako. Nakita ko yung kaklase ko kanina, yung kinaiinisan ko. Hahahaha. Basta. Kung sakaling mabasa nya to, IF EVER mabasa nya (alam nyo naman madaming sources hahaha) sana maintindihan nya. Lilipas din to brad.

Pangarap kong maging director. Kaso hindi pa ako sure kung anong course yung itetake ko pag dating ng college. Gusto ko talaga yung may kinalaman sa films kasi I SERIOUSLY LOVE MOVIES kaso ewan ko lang. Diba Multimedia Arts yon? Kaso mahal eh, tsaka more likely magsasucceed ka kapag madami kang pera. Eh. Yun yung problema.

Medyo gusto ko ding lumandi. Hahahahaha chos.

[Now Playing]

NOW I'M LIKING HIM AGAIN.

Idk. My friends also like him. Well I like him since last year. But I've got to ignore these feelings because my friends started to like him too. D'you get it? It's kind of lining up in an elevator, but you realized that there are too many people inside so you just take the stairs because you don't want to force yourself drowning in a crowd.

But I guess I like him because we like the same music.

Yeah. You read it right.

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go, But tonight I'm gonna hold you so close

Naoo I'm being so sad. 

I was pretty good a while ago. But after I heard this, my heart aches. It cannot stop from aching. Nadepress lang ako bigla. Ang calm ng boses nya. Alam kong masama yung ginawa nya, pero hindi mapigilang maawa. Alam kong hindi nya ginusto yon. Gusto nya lang makatulong. Grabe. Grabe. Huhuhuhuhuhu. Tae. Hindi talaga ako makarecover. Nashock ako. 

Try nyo isearch yung news na yon. Ma-ashfjlcnamlxcjnkmaqpfsnx kayo. Tapos yung mukha nya pa :((((( Halatang nagsisisi sya sa ginawa nya. Basta asjflcnxamipfcnkasxcijnaslxcmpnojasfcjoanj.

A pocket full of sunshine~

When I was in 6th grade, I incredibly spent 5 diaries for a whole school year. Actually I started on Grade 3, but I was actively writing when I was 10 years old. When I was in 1st year of highschool, I spent.. maybe 3, but I didn't call it diary. Instead - journals. Yeah, I really love writing. Haha.

Now, I think I'm being used to blogs. Well, I actually have 3 online diaries (blog) and a notebook (diary).

• Oblivion - my main blog. Well, my two-year old blog. Been active since 2010. Where I post some interesting parts of mine. The moody and demanding side of mine. It's full tagalog. It has some of my favorite songs, especially those smooth and refreshing ones, as background music. Bored photo's the display picture. Well, I only post what I want to post, and that doesn't reflect the whole me. But I totally love that blog. It's full of memories, like REALLY. I could possibly cry whenever I back read, to be honest. That's one of the most important possession of mine. :)
  (Well I'm just sad that I limit my posts there because of some issues. I miss the old times where I post countless things everyday. Maybe it's true that nothing lasts forever~)
• Chamber of secrets - this. Well I don't really understand why I have this blog. Hahahaha. I consider this as an escape. Escape from reality, from the hateful world. I used to post careless things here. Almost all of my secrets were buried here. Problems from family, loveless life, broken friendships. But then, my schoolmates found my blog and my privacy was caught away from me. My posts were limited again, but of course I'll never delete this blog because it has been a friend to me after all. 
• *Secret blog* - a love blog. Haha no, I mean, almost. A very private blog. Has an obvious password (:p) and has been a very dear friend to me these days. I post unlimited things there, and was honestly created for someone who's a bit special to me. Okay nevermind. [I call it my baby. Idk. I'm so cornyy.]
• Diary - where my fresh updates are written. I do doodles on it, I draw people (mostly), I write random things. Well I'm getting lazy writing on it because I'm not really inspired to get crazyyy. But I still keep it. 

Say hi to them. They're quite special to me okay?

Meron akong bagong crush. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA TUPANGINA SDCJANLINJFDM XCMPIASFNAX.CJAKMS CXLANJSFXCAC .ASDFKVNA XC A BENTANG BENTA SYA SAKEN. De, kase ang friendly nya lang. Tapos nage-english. Wala lang. So nagustuhan ko sya dahil nage-english sya ganon? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA eh basta.

Hindi sya gwapo. Pero mukhang masayahin. Tsaka classy. Neh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA nakakailang bola na to saken.

Ang famous nya nga lang.

Eh. Pero natutuwa talaga ako sa kanya.

Omg bakit ko ba to sinasabi.

Nakita ko sya nung Friday. DIRING DIRI AKO SA SARILI KO. Sobrang haggard ko non tapos tupangina dumaan sya sa tabi ko. Alam mo ba yon ha?! Tae. Kulang na lang magpalamon ako sa lupa.

Pero natutuwa talaga ako sa kanya.

WAIT

Kaso parang ang bad boy naman non eh. Sabe nung kaibigan ko naninigarilyo daw yon :(((((((((( Oh noooo. Sira pangarap.

Bahala sya sa buhay nya.

Eh. Ano ba to.

Pero I kinda like him.

Woo.

He wasn't consistent.

Well, all of them lasted for 2 days. I used to have tons of views every day, but all of a sudden I decided to make this blog private. Maybe because I don't want to be hurt. You should know why.

I'm having a hard time naooo okay.

Ewan ko. Parang bigla na lang akong kinikilig these days. Hindi ko alam kung anong dahilan. Hindi naman sa naiihi o what. Basta bigla na lang akong kinikilig.

Baliw no.

Naiinis nga pala sakin yung kaklase ko. I feel it. Ewan, kinakausap nya na lang ako kase no choice sya. Naiinis din ako sa kanya eh. As in sobra. Pero, tuwing nalapit sya sakin, para bang bigla na lang nawawala yung inis ko. Parang gusto kong magstay kami sa ganong state, naguusap na parang walang mali. Wait, I'm not liking him, I don't have a crush on him. Basta ganon lang talaga. Tapos kapag iniwan nya ako, babalik na naman yung inis ko sa kanya.

Well, that's me.

Yun yung napansin ko sa sarili ko. For example, may naiinis sa akin. Naiinis din ako sa kanya. Kapag wala sya, kinamumuhian ko sya. Pero kapag kinausap nya na ako, there's something inside me that wants us to be friends, despite of the bad atmosphere around us. Parang ganon. Nagets mo ba? Ayos lang kung hindi. Hekhekhek.

And because of that, napagkakamalan akong plastik.

Kahit naman sarili ko, napapatanong kung plastik nga ba ako. Pero I always end up with an answer - no.

Sa pagkakaalam ko, ang pagiging plastik eh yung tipong mabait ka sa harap ng isang tao, pero pag tumalikod nato, tsaka ka tumatake ng revenge. Wait. Mali! Backstabber pala yon. Parehas lang ba yung backstabber at plastic? Okay. Hindi ko gets.

Well that's life.

You can't please anybody, I am telling you. If you try to be good to them, they'll say you are fake. If you try to be rude to them, they'll hate you.

Sometimes, I wish to be alone.

But that's quite pathetic right?

No one knows what's the perfect choice, only God does.

Okay. So lahat ng ilalagay ko dito ay pawang katotohanan LAMANG. I'm just warning you before I start because I think you will not easily believe these. Tsaka some bloggers kase, they post things that are not true, just to impress. Woo tumataglish. Ayoko na nga. Nagmumukha na kong tanga dito. Hekhekhek. Just to tell you of course - I'm not trying to impress all of you.

Here are some of my 10 facts/views/opinions about love. This will be randomized of course.

• I fall for pretty boys. I mean, sobrang dali kong magkagusto sa mga pogi, physically. Sabihin nyo ng choosy ako pero looks are very important to me. 
• Well, if ever may manligaw sa akin, gusto ko liligawan nya ko ng 5years+. Chareng. Hekhek. Feeling maganda eh XD De, pero dun mo kasi matetest kung magtatagal kayo eh. Dun mo matetest kung mahal ka ba talaga ng tao o hindi, kung handa syang maghintay, kung hindi sya basta basta gigive up sayo, kung paghihirapan ka nya, kung lahat ng sacrifices handa nyang gawin para sayo. Besides, hindi ka naman basta basta papasok sa isang relasyon na hindi pangmatagalan diba? Hindi din naman maganda yung mga relasyon na 'basta' na lang, yung tipong nabuo lang bigla dahil lang sa kinikilig ka sa mga nangyayari sa inyo. You can't easily enter a relationship just because of the thrills, but because you sure that it's for keeps.
• Gusto ko din malapit bahay nya samen. Para walang excuses kapag hindi kayo nagkita. I mean, gusto ko kasi personal kayong naguusap, hindi yung hanggang text lang o kaya internet lang. Seriously, karamihan naman ngayon nagliligawan sa text eh. That's a total WTF. Kapag sa text, hindi mo makikita sincerity nya, madali lang magedit ng sasabihin, madali lang magsabe ng I love you kahit hindi mo naman talaga nararamdaman - kase hindi ka naman nya nakikita. The way you act your emotions and the words you choose to say are both different. Magkulang ka sa isa, bagsak lahat.
• Gusto ko pareho kaming fan ng harry potter. Charing. Ayos lang naman kung hindi eh. Pero.. eh. Hahaha. Maganda pa din kapag potterhead kami pareho.
• Boys who blog. Ewan ko kung bakit nakakaturn on to saken. Ang different kase. Tsaka parang ang korni kapag puro dota lang alam - okay I don't want to offend those players - pero wala lang, para kasing nakakaturn off yung puro ganon lang yung inaatupag. Chos. Hindi ko talaga maexplain to. 
• Turn off: Walang paninindigan. Chos. De. Basta. Real men have principles. Real men fight for the things that are very important to them.
• Nakakaattract din pala yung mga lalaking marunong magprioritize. I mean, sobrang laking factor ng pagiging responsable okay. Naaattract din ako sa mga mahilig magbasa ng libro. You know. Reading books doesn't really make you uncool, or even a nerd. 
• Boys who just believe in themselves. Have enough confidence, but knows how to be humble too. Malakas fighting spirit! Hindi duwag. AS IN HINDI DUWAG OKAY. Well, hindi duwag especially when it comes to life. Wtf ayoko na next na. Hekhek.
• Talented. Seriously :) I really like boys who are talented.
• Good sense of humor. As in yung tipong hindi awkward, as in hindi corny. 
• Last but definitely not the least, boys who love God above all. Boys who pray and remain faithful to Him whatever happens. May mga lalaki kasi ngayon na parang landi lang ng landi, nakakalimutan na si Lord. Basta. Everyone should love God first before someone/something else.

PS. Inspired ako sa Bokura ga Ita. Kung ano anong kalandiang natatype ko ngayong oras na to. Ka in lab anak ng tupa.

People are changing nowadays. It doesn't sound new to me, actually. It's just that.. I've been quite used to the old routines. The way everything fucks up, it's just annoying.

He doesn't really notice me these days. It's not that I'm an attention-seeker. Well seriously, it kinda feels  terrible inside. Especially when he does annoying things, like provoking me when I'm in a 'not-that-good' mood. He's not the same anymore. Everything has changed. Everyone. 

Chloe, the world doesn't revolve to you.

Okay.

But it hurts.

How can I avoid this pain?