A week ago (2)

I know it’s really late but I can’t miss the chance to write again to you. I just finished Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist. And how fascinating it is to feel sparks and rainbows with it, when I felt nothing but boredom when I first saw the movie. 

And there it was, aching again. And I don’t know whether it was because I like you so, so much and I have always - ALWAYS - longed for you, or maybe it was the fear that we might not be together in the future. I crave you, every part of you. And I want you to be a part of my future. I want you to hold my hand and secure me, and I’ll do the same for you. I fucking want you so much and heaven knows how much I’d be willing to give my whole love to you.

And maybe there’s a reason why I enjoy every romantic movie I could get and watch. A reason why I feel so good with books. A reason to be excited on traveling the world. Because I’m assuming that someday, I’m going to wake up in a monday morning and see you lying beside me, and I’d whisper to myself, ‘wow, I will never get tired of waking up anymore’. Because someday, we would walk along the streets of new york with our hands glued to each other. Because someday we would stay up all night watching romantic and heart-breaking dramas, and throw popcorn at each other’s face and stuff. Because someday, I’ll scream out of the blue, and maybe - well I’m kinda sure of it - I’d still feel incredible and proud and happy that you are here, right beside me, spending the rest of your life with someone who used to go to your concerts and fangirl-ed over you. Someday I’m going to be really, really happy because I have already reached my dream - and that’s you.