Earl.

Napanaginipan ko si Earl kaninang umaga. Okay, tanghali na naman ako nagising kanina. Well, ayoko muna kasing gumising kasi ayokong matapos yung panaginip ko ng ganun ganun na lang. Well, it was just...
Si daddy daw nagalit sakin. Sobrang hindi ko kinaya yung nanyari, hindi kami pwedeng umalis. Pero syempre, palagi naman akong nakakatakas sa mga panaginip ko kaya dahan dahan akong umalis tapos tumakbo. Nakapikit ako habang tumatakbo, bahala na ang paa kong dalhin ako sa gate para sumakay sa jeep papuntang school. Nararamdaman kong hinahabol ako ng tatay ko pero kahit anong pilit ko, hindi ko mabuksan yung mata ko. Pagkadilat ko na lang, nasa gate na ako. Madaming tao. Konti lang yung jeep. Natatakot ako dahil kapag hindi pa ako makasakay, baka maabutan ako ng tatay ko. Luckily merong isang jeep na nasakyan ko. Tapos bigla itong lumiko sa primarosa, sa subdivision namin. Kinabahan na naman ako dahil baka mahuli ako ng tatay ko. Pero sabi ng driver, susunduin daw namin si Earl. Jeepney turned out to be Earl's service. Pagkatingin ko sa may likod ng fx (because naging fx yung jeep without my notice, and I'm in the middle of the vehicle.) nakita ko yung mga kaklase ni Earl. Yung fx na service nila, sobrang laki. And then nakita ko na si Earl. With the same look he had when I first met him on our subdivision. Then dumaan kami sa bahay namin, and yung bintana nakabukas, I can see my dad's angry face. Tumungo ako para hindi nya ako mapansin. 
Then napunta na ako sa school namin. Yung school namin is yung Pilot, my elementary school. Pero puro highschool ang nandun. I feel safe, and one of my dreams became true. Maging kaservice si Earl and have a chance to be his friend. Then I woke up.
Anyway, 
This morning, the only thing I ever thought is him. I remembered my deal with God. I dont even know if deal pa din namin yun ni God. I said to him na hindi ako mafa-fall in love with somebody else, handa akong maghintay kay Earl. I sound like a desperate woman, but he's so my dream guy. He's my IDEAL guy.

• Mas matangkad sa akin. Because it is really RARE for me na makakilala ng isang lalaking mas matangkad pa sakin pero same age. You know,  I'm 5'5 with 13 years old of living. It's really hard for me to find someone who's taller than me.
• Maputi sya. Well, yun talaga ang hanap ko sa isang lalaki. Kailangan talaga maputi. Hindi ako nagkakacrush sa maitim. Well, I dont even know. Maybe I just wanted to be so choosy-type.
• Pogi sya. In fact, heart throb sya. Okay, I always fall for pretty boys. I always fall for heart throbs. Even though I'm not a pretty girl, and I'm just an ordinary type. I don't know if "dork love heart throb" truly exist in our world. But who knows? I keep believing with that.
• His family is sooooooo great. Ang gaganda ng mga tita nya, sobrang pogi ng mga tito nya. Lahi nila ang mga pogi. And sosyal sila, sobra. Yan ang gusto ko, yung sosyal na lalaki. PRAMIS. Ayoko ng cheap na type, yung walang alam kung pano pumorma. English speaking nga sila eh. Basta, I really love his family. In fact, kinausap ako ng tatay (o baka tito) nya the first time I passed by their street. And simula non palagi na kong nginingitian nung mga tao sa kanila, and every time I passed by their street, and everytime Reigo's there (his younger cousin) Reigo always call me "Ate!" with a smile on his face. I don't know why. But I love it.
• I THINK HE KNOWS ME. I don't know. But I have this strong feeling that he notices me. Ugh, why am I assuming?
• Okay, his brothers were my schoolmates when I was in Kindergarden. I like his cousin back then, named Kyle. And we have pictures. Okay, I think it's just a coincidence. Who knows? 
• He's shy. He's humble. He's totally a good guy. He's one of a kind.

The thing is, yung deal namin ni God eh parang nasira ko. You know, I kinda fell for Jerome nung bakasyon eh. Pero I think God told me/gave me a sign to JUST FORGET JEROME. Well, I thought I just have to forget him because there's nothing to do with him. He's not serious with me. No, I mean, I'm not sure if he'll be serious with me for too long. Maybe he liked me at the end of the school year, but he might know someone better. Besides, we're may not be classmates again. So, goodbye Jerome.
I think I should be serious with Our deal. Shouldn't I?