It's a bit funny that whenever Mark shows up to the choir, I'm always not around. And when I attend 1st Saturday masses, he's always absent. Someone said that maybe it's a sign that we're not really something. Even destiny doesn't give us the chance.
I like Mark, but not totally in that way. I like his presence just because I know he is something. I like that he's a up graduate and now studying medicine. I like his passion for piano. I like that he has good sense of photography and he's really good with clothes. I like his sunny personality and his God-fearing attitude. I like how polite he is and how loyal he is with his friends (and lover) and family. I like him and I like the way he thinks (well I have read his blog, that's why).
But it's not that I'd want to pursue my feels for him. Today, I realized that no matter how appealing he is to me, there's nothing I can do with my feelings. I just feel like I'll never be good enough for him.
And it's funnier that I have felt this for the past men whom I got admired to. When will I be good enough for someone?
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